During high school when Tumblr was one of the most popular social media websites — at least among my peers — I created a bucket list. My bucket list consists of ideally 100 things I want to do, experience, and / or see before I die.
After many failed attempts trying to figure out my password (we’ve all been through this one time or another), I revisited my Tumblr bucket list page. Looking through my list, I realized that from 2013 — since I last updated my bucket list– I have not accomplished much.
But I have.
Within the past three years, I have made accomplishment towards my career by substantially improving my resume and work related experiences. I have interned for numerous publications and public relations companies including Seventeen and Harper’s Bazaar. I met my amazing boyfriend and experienced a different kind of love. I adopted my cat, with whom I have an unhealthily obsession with. I’ve gained friends and lost a lot more but I can not see myself living without the select few that I have. I’ve grown and realized my passion for taking selfies and fashion or “dressing weirdly” as my mother says. I’ve even went fishing on a boat and learned that I am surprising very good at it (weirdly good, like I was born to become a fisherman good). The point is that I’ve done things that I wanted to do.
But I have not crossed anything off my bucket list. My 2013 bucket list is not filled with the craziest adventures that I can not cross off my list right this moment. In 2013, I wanted to go to a broadway performance, watch a movie in an outdoors cinema, travel out of New York. Some of these things on my list are easily doable but I still have not accomplished many things on it. In fact, I’ve completely forgotten that I had a bucket list on Tumblr until this week.
What does that say about me? If certain things on this list are actually places I want to see, experiences I want to endure and go through, wouldn’t I remember to see them? Have I changed since 2013? Have my wants changed since high school? Three years is a long time and I know that I have grown since I’ve created my bucket list so I made a new one.
In this new bucket list, some bullet points from my 2013 bullet has moved over to my 2016 bucket list but a lot has changed. One obvious change is that it is significantly shorter and a little more realistic. I still would like to have the perfect smile and be confident with my body in a bikini, and take my mom somewhere she has never been. But the 2016 Sam no longer wants to stand under the Hollywood sign, go snorkeling or be in a movie. A lot has changed in three years and so has my wants and interests.
Change is good. As time passes and as I grow — I am merely just a 20 year old — I know that my bucket list will change again. But for now, I will try my best to accomplish the things I would like to accomplish and see the things I would like to see even if I forget to write it down on this list.