When my senior year of high school was coming to an end, I used to think about how different things would be when it came to seeing my friends. My best friends and I have known each other since 6th grade and were practically inseparable all of middle and high school leading up to college. It was upsetting to know we wouldn’t see each other as much but I was also excited to start doing my own thing and being a bit more independent. Either way I assumed we were all going to be busy while juggling a job and schoolwork; although I was sure we would make time to see each other considering we were all staying here for college.
Things have definitely changed since then. For starters, they don’t go to school. One of them dropped out after a semester and the other one dropped out after two, she insists she’s “going back”. But for the moment, they currently waitress/bartend at different restaurants. Which is fine, at least they’re working and making money.
Listen, I love these girls to death but things between us are different. Sure we keep in contact and I know if I ever needed anything they’ll be there for me but things are just not the same.
I constantly find myself feeling out place whenever I do see them. They obviously have more free time on their hands, which is why they’ve gotten a lot closer so it’s uncomfortable for me. I’m an only child so the closest thing I have to siblings are these girls. They’ll stay out late at night however many times a week they want and not worry about anything because they don’t really have any other responsibilities or because their shifts start at like 4 pm, as opposed to me. I can’t do the same because I either have work or school in the morning. So whenever we do hangout, I feel left out, especially because I don’t fit into their conversations. We don’t really share the same interests anymore and it sucks.
It’s not that I don’t have other friends, it’s just that I miss them and wish they would mature already.