Though at least that wasn’t the embarrassment I faced via PICTURE ABOVE; if I was one of the lucky ones, I sorta-kinda had gotten broken up with through text message. The past few days have been a terrible emotional roller coaster for me. Realistically, sad emotions are what anyone would expect after someone who they cared for decides to end their friendship, relationship or in some cases marriage. Who invented sad emotions anyway, I kind of blame it on Shakespeare based on his logo of one of his “Tragic Plays“.
Last Friday, someone who I’ve been talking to heavily for three weeks decided to end things with me. The way I’m writing about this you’d probably call it how you see it which would be considered a LUST RELATIONSHIP; sorry to shut you down, that wasn’t the case at all. The situation was taken slowly but I must say the two of us were inseparable via text and phone-calls; couldn’t hardly actually go out because of crazy work schedules, class schedules and that BITCH sandy (she gets all lower cases). Though from our mutual understanding that we both didn’t want to be in a relationship nor wanted a title in our lives at the moment of our lives; we both thought our friendship would be forever more. Friday morning when I replied “Good Morning” and in return I got “yea we can’t talk ok sorry we can’t talk ok“, all the emotions I thought were jovial suddenly left my body including my heart.
Now, I wasn’t in LOVE (I’ve been heart broken once and it took me about 3yrs to actually heal from it), if anyone knows me you would know I’m an Aquarius and Aquarians (well me) are hopeless romantics, when I genuinely care for someone I give my all for that person, ignore all the negatives and think about how happy i’m going to be from now on then. This is also my personality; my guard quickly drops when I’m in LIKES with some and its being taken seriously.
Still shocked and surprised, I just didn’t know what to do; putting up a facade that I can just move with the snap of my fingers. Now here I am, writing…well actually pouring out my emotions into this blog post. Its been rough for me this past weekend up until now; only knowing when will someone seriously take me serious and not play games with me. I can’t even
smile without a reason anymore on my own without it having to be polite or courteous. I refuse to make this a 4 page letter, I’m writing to release some of the hurt and pain this person has caused. My relationship/love chapter has never been an easy one for me so I guess I have to start learning to accept it probably prepare myself for becoming the only single person in the United States of America.
oh’ don’t worry i’m not going to become a bitter person against LOVE
though I wonder when will I stop getting hurt …